The Cause
  NR called me a liar about what JR did. I really looked up to her, but I don't know why I expected a different kind of response. In my 16y/o imagination, she would have been shocked, disgusted, and supportive of me. Instead, she called me a liar and shamed me. When I tried to reach out to her in pain, without being aggressive but coming from a place of sincerely wanting to make peace with the whole thing, she told me my actions were hurtful and that I was harassing her family. At that time, I blamed myself and felt so much guilt for everything, so I really internalized and believed that. I felt like a monster. I resent her for being seen as a feminist in her community, for putting her daughter and her daughter's friends in danger, and for